And once again it’s been a while since I posted here last… There isn’t much to tell. I was lost in the darkness a few weeks back, still am wondering around, trying to find my way out, but it’s hard… Really hard… I realized that there are people around me (online) that who do care, and I feel so thankful to them, but also so ashamed every time I swing back to the darkness – I just feel like I’m betraying their help…
I don’t have much to talk about. Nothing really happened the past few weeks. I’m trying to start study for my state exam in July. I’m trying to keep a diet. I fixed my teeth. I went swimming once, but it got me sick. I went out with the friends from college twice. It was good I suppose. My high school English teacher who was my homeroom teacher for five years passed away last week – kind of shocked us all, because she was so young and no one really knew that she was sick. I’ll remember her forever because she was one of the smartest and nicest people I’ve ever known. And a great teacher.
A. is coming back for a couple of weeks tonight. I guess I’ll be hanging out with her for a while –at least it will get me out of the house a little. She is okay when she is here for a little, so hopefully there won’t be any drama around her this time. And maybe I’ll try to explain to her face-to-face how I feel and think about some things… we’ll see...
Nothing else to tell about...
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