Izu's World

I don’t know whether it’s the stress around my exams, or the approach of fall, or just my usual moodswings, but it’s a fact that I’ve been feeling rather down the past few days. I can hardly sleep and whenever I do manage to sleep my dreams are usually quite fucked up and I end up not resting at all and waking up feeling even worse. I absolutely hate it… I guess that the whole feel-great after my trip is finally reaching its end, because… well, nothing cheers me up anymore. I feel like I’m standing on the same spot, not moving at all. And I feel anxious and nervous all the time. My heart is beating painfully slowly or painfully quickly, I feel like suffocating, like I’m about to burst into tears even when there’s nothing to cry for, nothing that upsets me. I feel like I’m falling into a black hole, like I’m drowning and like I’ll just vanish without anyone noticing it or caring…

And I know that it’s not so, I know that I do have friends online and offline who would care, who would worry, but I still feel like no one gives a damn about me. It’s so annoying and painful your brain and your heart to be telling you different things. I feel hopeless, yet I don’t dare to say anything to anyone, scared that they would get mad at me for thinking such stupid things.

Damn it… I just want to be normal. I just want to enjoy my days without seeking reasons to get depressed. But even when I’m happy I always find a reason to get down. Why do I have to be so screwed up? The only time when I don’t feel like suffocating is when I’m at the gym, but this week I won’t go because of the exams (for which I’m hardly studying and which adds even more stress). And I’ve spent the past three days thinking just how lonely I am, how pitiful I am.

You know, I sent away one of my closest and oldest friends yesterday – M. will be studying in Austria for the next year, and I just wish it was me… I just want to get out of here, away from everything and everyone I know. I know that next year when I graduate I may do my master degree in London, but… that’s so far away… and right now I’m suffocating. I want someone to notice me, but I’m as invisible as always. Even my ‘friends’ (offline) don’t notice me. They don’t talk to me unless I talk to them. They don’t care to ask how I am. They don’t care to notice that there are things I’m touchy about… All they think of me is that I’m one big joke…

Like yesterday… we were in our favorite restaurant and we were just talking about someone we all know, who is quite hot and nice and who had started going out with a rather… well ugly person – personality-wise and looks-wise, so I joked about how if I knew that this person’s criteria was so low I could have tried to get them first, and A.’s reaction was literally ‘LOL, yeah, right, like you could get anyone’ – these were her exact words. Seriously? Do you call this a best friend? Someone who would not only be selfish 90% of the time, but who would also laugh at you (in a very serious tone) that you can’t get anyone… And M’s and V’s reactions were to laugh and nod in support of A’s words. Thank you for pointing it out… like I hadn’t noticed…

Needless to say I cried my eyes out when I got home. Thank god that Marg was online and kept talking to me… Really… if it wasn’t for my online friends I would have lost my mind long ago…

But right now I feel even lonelier than before. I feel like a freak. And, yeah I know that just a couple of weeks I was talking about Teo, but… this was a drunk thing, far away from everyone… And an almost one night stand doesn’t really work to make me feel more confident about myself, because still… no one has ever liked me for me… I’m ugly, I have a fucked up personality, but… it’s not like all the taken people are beauties and hotties, right? What do they have that I don’t? Confidence? Is there some big secret that I don’t know… What should I change to make people like me? I’m so fixed on the thought that people dislike me that I don’t dare to approach anyone anywhere… not online, not offline… How can I change?

Have you ever thought about changing yourselves? Have you ever done anything to change yourselves? Because I have… Well, actually I’ve always found things that I want to change about myself, but it’s so damn hard to change them at the same time. It’s even hard to change them one at a time. Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about those things. Those who know me a little better… or just a little, really… anyone who has spoken with me for more than 3 seconds (at least online) know that I’m quite the insecure person. Thankfully, offline I am quite good at acting and no one, not even my closest friends or family know just how insecure I am (which is really not good).

The first thing that I actually seriously did to change myself was start some diets and studying hard, long before I joined Elliquiy. I wanted to succeed in life, have a good job and money – which is essential if you want to have a normal life in my crappy country, so I studied my ass off, I got back at college and now I’m in the top 5-10 students in my major, which is quite impressive, taking in mind I study only before exams (those who roleplay with me know that the only (and not always) time I take off roleplaying is around finals). Then I started dieting, lost about 30+ pounds for about a year and a half, managed to start a couple of not so close friendships with people from college – at least I have people to hang out at lectures and inbetween lectures. So in a way I’m changing. But not as fast as I wish.

You see… ever since I gained weight (14ish-year-old) I’ve been excusing myself from things because of my weight. My classmates would ask me to go to a sea camp with them, I’d say no, because I was ashamed of my body. Anyone would ask me to do this or that, and I’d always say no, because I always think that people laugh at me for how fat I was/am. And in fact I’ve never been all that fat… At least I didn’t look too fat. I’m tall almost 5’8’’, and the most I’ve ever weighed was about 190-195. But I didn’t look like a ball… I dunno… people usually stared at me and said ‘No way’ whenever I told them how much I weighed. I was just… compact and firm? I dunno… Point is, there were much shorter and much fatter people around me who didn’t have (at least not obvious) issues with the way they looked – they were popular, having tons of friends and boyfriends/girlfriends. So, yeah, I know the problem is always in the person’s mind and the way they see themselves.

Even now when I weigh about 147, which is only 10ish pounds away from my dream weight, I still see myself as a fatty and I feel ashamed of my looks. People say I’m cute, sweet, attractive even, and I hear and see only lies in their words.

So, all this rambling was to explain why the first thing in my ‘To Change’-list is how I look and how I see myself. I’ve always used my weight as an excuse and once this problem is dealt with I will have no longer an excuse to not do things. At least that’s the plan. But to be honest, whenever I workout hard or do any sports I feel great and I like myself. I’ve always been the sporty type – ever since a kid, but around the boom of internet in the new millennium (which was unfortunately during my puberty when the body develops) I forgot about it… Like many others actually. But I’m already coming out of this phase and getting into the phase of actually taking care of my body while I’m still young (because I do not consider 23 being old), so that once I get older I will not have to worry too much about it.

So, back to the things I want to change about myself!

You see offline I’ve always protected myself with the role of the always funny, always smiling and joking person. Humor and sarcasm were my sword and shield in so many fights that I can’t even remember the number. But they were also the reason I put off a lot of potential friends (lovers maybe even). So lately I’ve been starting to just cool down a little and not letting every second word coming out of my mouth to be a joke. A few friends (well actually it was just A.) did mention that I was such an emo for being serious and not joking or laughing at some stupid youtube videos. But what totally made my… season (yeah it was that big), was what another friend (and someone whom I’ve had a crush-like feelings for ever since 8th grade (highschools here are from 8th to 12th grade)) told me about a month ago when I refused to act like an idiot like everyone else was doing and I stood by his side when he refused to do it either (they wanted to jump in a rather dirty and disgusting fountain). So, he said ‘Wow, Izu… you’ve really changed… I like that.’ And he smiled and gave me a half hug. Yeah, I know it is funny, but you see this guy had always been a bit (well a lot) annoyed with my constant jokes and we’ve had more than one or two fights, so hearing it from him in such a sincere way… It just made me feel like it was all worth it. So I’m continuing with this even if I lose a few ‘friends’ in the meanwhile.

Is it odd that I feel like it’s easier to change my offline-self than my online one? I’ve always said and believed that online I am who I really am – no masks, no acts, just me. Silly, insecure, clingy, etc. That’s how I really feel. But somehow my offline’s bad sides are not even seen in my online life, and my online’s bad sides are never seen in my offline life. Isn’t it odd? But I do want to change my online self as well. My theory is that online friends are much closer than real life ones because when it’s online people tell each other everything much easier than when it’s face to face. Even fighting online is better, because both sides have time to think what to write, write what they think, read what the other has written and think about how to reply. While face-to-face goes quickly and usually ends up uuuugly. So, yeah, as silly as it might sound I consider my online friends much closer than my real life ones. Especially since they accept me the way I am – whiny, clingy, etc. I know that my real friends would ditch me right away the moment I get a breakdown, even if it’s not face-to-face, but I just talk to them on some messenger. While my online friends have been there for me so many times…

So, yeah… for their sake I want to change, because I’m extremely paranoid about losing them (part of the clinginess, you see). I want to be calmer, I want to be more confident, I want to not overthink things, I just want to be able to enjoy being with them, being in a group without getting an anxiety attack about people hating me and not wanting me there. It’s really hard to overcome, but I do get a lot of help (especially from my future personal shrink – Miss Marg, whom I know use free of charge ;] ). Point is that it’s just much harder to change my online self, my more ‘true’ self. I guess it will take time (most probably a lot of time), but at least I’m trying, right?

I guess this whole blog post is turning into a big rambling nonsense, but I dunno… I just want my thoughts to be written somewhere. Even the blog was a part of me changing (and suggested by Marg) – it was created to have me a place to talk about myself and whatever is going on in my head and heart, because I tended (and still do) to bottle everything up, but writing here has been of great help. Who knows, maybe and hopefully one day I’ll reread my posts and I’ll see what a long way I’ve walked in order to become the person I want to be and the person I’ll love and respect to be, and I’ll feel even happier about it. Because I’m sure I will succeed. One way or the other. Sooner or later. But trust me – one day in the future there will be a blog post in here saying something like ‘Finally there’ or ‘I’m happy who I am’. But as this famous ad says – I will just keep walking ;]

It’s been one rather hectic week. But I can pretty much sum it up with a few words – I got sick, which was horrible. I got temperature, then my stomach was giving me problems. I hardly ate anything this past one week. Just… horrible. -_- I thought that it was already over but my fever went up once again yesterday and the stomach problems returned after a day of having none, so now I’m drinking some antibiotics and a whole mix of medications, that give me a rather odd buzz in the head (as if I’m drugged >.> ). Hopefully, I’ll get better soon, because I have to start studying for my retake exam – practical exam is going to be on 2nd September, the theory will be on 4th. I also have to finish this one project and send it for grading for another class that I picked the first semester, but didn’t made a project for as I was busy (not a big deal if I don’t but I want the credits, so I just might do it). And of course I want to start working out – I found a really nice gym, but I got sick on the next day, so I ended up not going there at all -.-

Oh, and yesterday around 1am I got a txt from Teo :3 He said that he was missing me and decided to write to me to see how I was doing. It was really sweet of his. To be honest, didn’t expect him to contact him. But I’m still not very sure about the wife situation. I’m waiting for him to come online on skype to ask him about those things, so you will be the first to know what happens. I don’t mind for a flirt, but I’m definitely never going for any sort of a more serious relationship with a married man. Meh… I’ll think about those things once I find out the truth. Plus, there is no guarantee that the flirt thing would continue in September when I go back to the resort (if nothing goes wrong, I’ve decided to return there for another week on 25th September).

Well… Gosh… I’m not sure how to start this blog post… As you know I was at a mountain spa resort, we did tons of hiking, healthy eating, yoga, fitness and so on… It was something like a fat camp, but super luxurious and not really concentrated on only getting thinner, but also learning how to exercise, how to live a healthy life… It was really great and I met quite a few interesting people there. But… maybe the most interesting guy was Teo – our instructor.



Our days started with yoga, then breakfast and then going up the mountains, climbing peaks, going through forests… The afternoons were taken by massages, swimming and aerobics and fitness. But it was usually just me and a couple of other people during those afternoon exercises. It was quite fun, because we would workout, talk, laugh, joke… And of course Teo was always there to lead the exercises, to make sure we worked out properly. At first I thought it was my imagination, but I could bet that Teo was paying more attention to me than to anyone else. And no, it wasn’t because I was doing badly at those activities…

But he would always say something like ‘Good job, Izu! Keep on like this!’, then he would wink at me and grin. Or during the exercises in the fitness he would stay next to me and just chit-chat with me about this or that, always correcting my poses, the way I stood or moved… even if it was wrong by a millimeter… I did think it was just because he was nice and he liked that I was doing my best and I was serious about getting fit.

When we went on our hiking trips we usually were taken to the starting points by a bus and Teo would always sit next to me, talking to me just about anything. We were always talking, laughing and joking with each other, teasing each other. It was as if we had been buddies forever. And during our hiking trips up the mountains, he would always come to me and walk next to me, encouraging me to keep on going whenever the path was getting harder. Or if he went back to make sure that everyone else was doing well, he would always come back up to me running, giving me a grin and thumbs up before taking his place at the lead…

I really didn’t think much of those things… until Thursday that is…

It was just me, Teo and Doc – one of the guys who always came to the gym to workout in the afternoon. So we were talking about this and that – mainly about what an unhealthy way of life everyone leads and that no one really gives a damn until it’s too late. Then Teo started talking to me about my major, about my hobbies, about the languages I know. And every now and then he would say something like ‘Man, you’re so smart! How come no one hasn’t stolen you until now?’ – I did think that it sounded like he was hitting on me, but I didn’t think much about it as I knew that he had a wife and a daughter (or at least I thought so). And whenever I’d say something about me wanting to get in shape, he would always say that I had an amazing body already and that it didn’t matter if it wasn’t all muscles, and that if I wanted to get in shape it wouldn’t be too hard, but he always added that he was sure that no one would mind my body if they were with me… You know… it did sound like hitting… and he would always say it with a small gentle smile and a nod. >.>

On Friday we went for horse riding and Teo always rode next to me, still talking to me just about everything. I didn’t even realize when we ended up way behind everyone else, just the two of us riding through the forest. The conversation went on for an hour or so, and I found out that Teo wasn’t married to that woman and that he wasn’t really with her anymore – all they had in common was their daughter – 16-months-old, they had broken up before they knew about the pregnancy, but still decided to keep the baby (I think it had already been too late for abortion as the ex told him about it in the 4th month?). Well, he kept talking as if he wanted to make sure that I knew that he wasn’t in a relationship. At least I thought so, because I didn’t ask him about the ex or the baby and he just started talking about it on his own (after asking me if I had someone and I said no, he said ‘me too’ and he continued telling me about it).

Point is we kept talking for so long that I didn’t even realize that I lost my sunglasses, and when I did realize it, Teo came back with me to look for them, and when we didn’t find them he made sure to ask the people in the farm to call him right away if (whenever) they found them.

Horse riding seemed to have been quite tiring for most people, because no one really showed up for the afternoon exercise on Friday, so it was only me and Teo. He was teaching me some exercises for abs and arms, always watching me, always smiling at me. And when my right calf’s muscle cramped up, he did give me a damn good rub until it loosened up and even a little afterwards… >.>

All of us went to a fish restaurant that evening as it was the last night for most of us (some people were leaving on Sunday), and Teo invited me to his car to get there (as it was outside the town, near a lake) and when we got there he sat next to me at the table. We kept on talking and laughing, but I did feel his knee bumping into mine every now and then… and it wasn’t by accident…

And when the mosquitoes got too annoying (as the tables were outside near the lake), we all decided to go back to the town and go clubbing. Well, some went home (the 40+ old people in the group), so it was just those under 30 that went to the club. It was small, crowded, the music was loud and all the couples were dancing. The single people there were me, Teo and this one other guy – George, and a couple of girls who were dancing. So the three of us sat at the bar, drinking and talking. But Teo kept leaning towards me, talking in my ear because “the music was too loud”. George went dancing with some girl and it was just me and Teo, drinking beer that remained at the bar…

Then we decided to do tequila shots. We started with 5 each… then 5 more… and then 3 more, but the last 3 were body shots… Followed by some wild dancing, then some slow dancing, then vodka with cola… By that time we were already in a dark corner of the club, laughing like crazy, our faces millimeters away…

We decided to go out for a small walk and to get some air and we headed out. We walked up the street, close to each other, our hands touching every now and then… Until I stumbled and he caught me, the two of us leaning against a wall of some building. He kept his hands on my waist and I could feel his fingers making their way under my shirt, caressing the skin there. I grinned and leaned in kissing him deeply (and boldly taking in mind that I’m kind of shy when it comes to things like this). We started making out, our hands all over each other’s bodies. We stumbled some more into a dark alley, never stopping kissing or touching each other and just in a matter of seconds we both had our pants down and our shirts up…

Gosh… what a body he had… >////< Perfect muscles, skin as soft as silk, lips delicious… Mm… >////< Soon our tongues explored each other’s bodies, taking turns… I found that he would whimper in pleasure whenever I sucked on his nipple or kissed under his belly button. He found that I would moan whenever he kissed and licked my neck or whenever his fingers traveled down…

At some point we were already laying on the ground, not caring if it was dirty. He kept rubbing against my thighs, his fingers teasing me as my own kept squeezing his tight butt (he did moan when I did it). We broke the kiss only to have him whisper every now and then pleadingly to ask me if he could enter me, only for me to tell him over and over again no without a condom (neither of us had one ;.; )… But I did think that neither of us didn’t stay too… We kept making out for some more and then I started to get up, mumbling that everybody would wonder where we were (both our cellphones were ringing), but just as I stood up he pressed me against the wall and showed me that he had quite the amazing tongue indeed… It wasn’t long before I dropped back on the ground and my voice was echoing in the dark valley, my knees shaking… And it wasn’t long before I showed him that I was quite good too…

And I guess he did like it a lot as he kept whispering to me ‘Let’s go to my room’ once we were on our way back to the club, his lips brushing against my ear, arm wrapped around my waist. But… I said no… I just couldn’t risk doing it without a condom… plus I had some other reasons too… But still… once we were back at the club, we danced some more and then together with the other couples (George had disappeared with that girl) we went to the park and waited for the sunrise… only that this time Teo wasn’t hiding that he was into me as he sat down on the ground and he pulled me to sit between his legs, his arms around me, his lips on my neck, lips… (don’t worry everyone else was making out as well xD )…

We went back to the hotel around 6am and Teo kept pleading me to go to his room or to stay for some more and that I could just stay with him in his room, without paying anything… He was kind of cutely desperate… but… I still said no…

I went to my room and took a long shower before I headed to his office – he measured us when we came on the first day, and he was going to measure us on the last day before leaving as well. I did feel a bit awkward as I walked in his office with nothing but a bathing robe and underwear. He too looked a bit worried that I may say something or I dunno, but he did measure me and once we talked about the results (I’ve lost a couple of pounds, and I’ve lost a lot of the fat mass in my body and it turned into muscles – which is great results), about what I should do once I get back home… he still asked me if I was sure that I didn’t want to stay some more… I just told him that I couldn’t… but I did promise him to come back in September once my retake exam was taken care of… And he did look happy about it. He write me his email, his address in his hometown, both his phones and his skype, saying that he wanted to stay in touch with me…

We hugged and stay hugged for a couple of minutes, kissed and hugged again… And I had to leave to get my stuff packed and he too had to leave with the rest of the group that stayed until Sunday to climb a 3100meters high peak… But I did manage to give him one more hug and kiss on the hickey I left on his neck before they left (about 30minutes before I had to leave). I joked that he should call me from the top, because I really didn’t think that they were going to manage to climb it – it’s a hard track. But as I was sitting in the bus on my way back home I did get this call and he said that he was already missing my company and that next time he would take me up to the top with him to show me the great view from there…

Mh… so… yeah… That’s what happened… I kind of regret that we didn’t get to go all the way, but I’d never do it with someone I don’t know all that well without a condom… Plus, I’m not 100% sure if he was telling the truth about the ex being an ex… I mean… a kid could always bring two people together and I’d really not be the ‘other’… I haven’t added him on skype just yet. I will in a couple of days… Don’t want him to think that I can’t stop thinking about him, despite really not being able to stop thinking about him. >.< But… yeah… it kind of worked as a confidence boost up, you know… I’ve never had anyone being that interested in me to hit so hard on me and plead me to go with him to his room… And I was definitely not the only one who he could hit on – there were other single people with us, much more attractive than I am (at least I think so), and I could swear that one of the other single people was damn interested in Teo because they tried to butt in between me and Teo at the bar or when we were dancing… I don’t know… maybe I’m just too naïve… But… I don’t really care. I had a great time. I don’t feel used or anything like this. I do not regret what happened (maybe only what didn’t get to happen). And I do know that I will remember this night for a long long time. And if I do manage to go back there in September… well… we’ll see if this story will have a continuation…

*blushes*

Jeez… I’ve never thought that I can be so sweetly tired and just so full of emotions to not need to get online or turn my laptop on at all. I didn’t even check my email or Elliquiy or facebook… simply nothing. As soon as I’d get back in my room I’d just drop on the bed and watch a bit of TV before falling asleep. But to be honest, I’ve never felt better in my life and now that I’m back home I miss that place so badly… I can’t believe that tomorrow morning I’ll wake up and I will not go up in the mountains ;w;

Heh~ Anyways! I’ll tell you about the more interesting things that happened during the past few days. :]

Day 3 – The Lakes

I guess that by day 3 I was already in form because I didn’t really feel tired as we went up the mountain through the amazing nature. This time I managed to control my breathing so it was much easier and I didn’t feel dizzy or suffocating like the previous day. It was quite fun because the group was already starting to get to know each other and we were all talking, telling stories, laughing. We saw some amazing views, some magical places and the biggest mosquitoes you can ever imagine!!! And flash eating flies!!!

>.<’ There were tons of flies and mosquitoes around the lakes, and they were mean biters! I’m getting allergic reactions whenever I’m bit by a mosquito – it goes big and red, but those bites went HUGE. I got a bite on my leg and it was (still is) so big that it hurts putting a shoe or even a sock on. And the flies were literally biting our skin off! And it hurt like hell! ;.;

But it was totally worth it! I’d let them bite me all they want if I can just go there again. :]

There we go with a few pics of this place – keep in mind that this is at height around 2300-2400m, the top of those peaks, the lakes are hidden between the peaks :]














Day 4 – 2754m

Yes. That’s right. I climbed a 2754meter high peak – it was soooo hard! We’re not using ropes or anything like this – we go up the paths and then we climb the rocks like goats xD It’s extremely exhausting and just one wrong step and you can slide down with a rocks-slip and break your neck. :3

It was fun! And of course so very pretty… I’m starting to fall in love with my country!

The peak where we are heading from the starting point – that thing that is cut by the clouds.


The starting point was in the base of the peak (around 2000ish height) – a lake and a small house where we had tea afterwards :3




At some point there was no path (before the rocks to start)and we had to go up an 80-degree grassy wet slope… it was challenging!


After this picture my battery died and I couldn’t take a pic from the top ;.; But you can see what the last part looked like. And on the top you can see some lil dots – those are Julian and George who got up first in no time! And the girl is Annie – she broke her leg on the way down :(



Day 5 – Picnic

After the big peak we took a bit of break on the next day. (we still walked through the forests for maybe 10ish km) We had a picnic and we ate the most delicious meat on fire you can imagine! I don’t like eating meat, but I ate soooo much that day. It was ridiculously delicious! And we had so much fun~ :3

The meadow was in the middle of the forest surrounded by trees and mountains. Amazing place.



Day 6 – I’m a cowboy, baby xD

On Friday we went for horse riding. It was great. I got on a horse for the first time in my life and experiencing this while riding through a lovely valley… it was pure magic. But unfortunately that day I forgot my camera, so I have no pics ~_~ I’m waiting for the other people from the group to send me their pics and if I find anything good I’ll post them.

Only bad thing is that I lost my favorite sunglasses. ;.; I loved those sunglasses. And I have no idea when they had dropped off my head *had them up in my hair* But I think it was when we were galloping through the valley. But still… I don’t regret it… as this was the beginning of an amazing day. ;]

I’ll tell you about Friday night in another blog post because… well… it deserves a post of its own.

As a whole the place was amazing. I loved it there. And I do plan on going back at the end of September before the beginning of my classes. I lost 3 pounds, I got quite a few muscles and I look much fitter than before. I feel better. And I’m already deeply in love with both the mountains and working out. :)


(to be continued)

Mm… what a day ~__~ There were some points of the day where I felt like just dying. But as a whole I feel great :3

The day once again started with yoga exercises and breathing in/out’s, then breakfast then getting ready for the hiking and then going for the hiking. It started quite easily actually, but about 1/3 of the route (8km uphill) we got much higher in the mountain and the air went so very crystal clear and fresh that I simply couldn’t breathe. I had to stop every few hundred meters or calm down my breathing, but I did made it! All the way to the top (height of around 1800m) and I made it downhill quite quickly. I was feeling quite alright on the way down or while we waited for the rest of the group, but once we got on the buses that took us back to the resort I felt like dying once again. You see… the dumb drivers had turned on the AC in their cars and it was around 15C in the buses and 30+C outside, and after walking for 16km… well, it ain’t fun!! ~_~

When I got back to my room I almost collapsed, but I was alright in about 20 minutes (I had turned off the AC so it was nicely warm inside, which stabilized me).I took a warm shower and I was all fine once again. Then I went for lunch which I finished in no time because I was afraid that maybe my blood pressure had gone low from hunger (despite not being hungry at all). Well, I was fine by 3pm when I went for my massage…

Mm… *melts* The massage… it felt so good… so very very very good… and I was back at my top form afterwards as I managed to not only do the 1 hour aerobic workout, but then went to the gym with Teo and Doc (a doctor who is also a visitor here – it’s usually me, Doc and Teo who work out). And an hour workout started. I made mainly exercises for my abs and arms and chest, but I guess I did quite well, because Teo kept saying that my body structure is perfect for an athlete and if I work out seriously for a couple of months I might get super super fit :3 Which I take for a compliment :3 And it totally made my day.

I took a quick shower, then dinner, then a small walk, then an one hour bath with tons of bubbles and now I’m feeling like jelly, but in a very very good way :3

I made a few pics, nothing great, taking in mind that my camera is shitty and there were just endless trees and just about nothing to take a pic of xD

So there we go~

This is where we waited for the group to gather on the way down - I got sunburnt in the form of my sunglasses o~O



A river - next to it was the path :3



And that's part of the way that we had to go through the river OwO It was soooo cold and sooooo slippery >~< I wonder how I didn't end up in the water, taking in much just how horrible I am at keeping balance xD




Some of the more even part of the path ~o~



A pretty waterfall, but unfortunately there was no nicer angle to shoot it :{



At the end of the road ~_~ I was like melting by this point...



And at the end - a pretty butterfly :3

Ahh… what a day! I’m exhausted! I can hardly stand on my feet or keep my eyes open, but I feel amazing! The day started quite early – I woke up at 6.30am – the air here is so fresh that I didn’t need all that much sleep. I went to the restaurant for an early coffee (as it was like an hour or so before breakfast time), where I talked with Teo – our guide/instructor, about the upcoming day. Trust me. I didn’t think it would be so… thrilling, so exhausting, so energizing. Heh! I didn’t even know that one can feel exhausted and energized at the same time!

We did a 15 minute yoga (most breathing in and breathing out exercises), then breakfast, then we went to get ready for the first hiking. The bus took us to the starting point and then we walked up the mountain for… I have no idea… 5 kilometers up and then 5 kilometers down (tomorrow will be a total of 16km>.<) It was amazing! Not all that hard, but there were some places where I was gasping for air. Still I was in the lead ;]

We got back to the resort around 2ish pm, had lunch, took a quick shower and then I went to the pool where I swam for about an hour. Got back to take a quick shower just on time for the afternoon snack (some amazing peaches!), then back to my room to change and to go for the pilates/yoga exercises for an hour, then another hour in the gym. Teo was so damn amazed that I was still going xD By the time we got to the fitness, everyone else ran away x/D

After another shower, another change of clothes, dinner and a little walk, I’m back to my room, feeling so sweetly exhausted :3 I’m even thinking about coming back here in September :3 But I’m quite tired now and I think that I might just end up going to be around 10 am (something that hadn’t happened ever since I was like 6-7). ^^;

Mm… I made some silly pics today of the mountains, but right now I’m just toooooo tired to get up and go to the backpack and take out the camera x’D

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That’s all for now~ <3