Izu's World

Last night… it was quite breaking down to me. I wondered if my family knew me at all. I doubt that they know everything about me, I even doubt that they know half about me, but I do hope that they know me just a little bit… But last night I felt like my mother really knows nothing about me. Or if she did… well… she said things that sounded rather cold at least to me. If anyone else had heard them they wouldn’t have noticed anything about them, but my mother should know me, right? She should know that what she said and how she said it hurt me, right? I’m not going to talk about it, because last night I felt like I was suffocating from pain. My heart hurt, I was on the verge of tears… it was horrible. Anxiety attack to the max.

But I’m not gonna talk about it. I’m not going to think about it. I’ll just forget it and assume that she hadn’t meant saying those things the way she did. It’s in the past.

Today I’m going to talk about the thing that made me forget about all the pain in my heart, made me smile, made me happy for the first time in a long time. Today I spent a lot of my savings to buy a bike.

It’s a Cross Sprinter Special Edition Mountain Bike.

• Fork: Zoom
• Frame: Oversize 6061 alloy tubing, detachable rear gear hanger.
• 580 Suspension with 80mm travel. Oversize alloy legs and one piece lowers. Adjustable preload.
• Frame Size :19" with a 23" top tube.
• Wheel Size :26" Crosser X-Pose 36 hole deep section rims. Quick release front & rear alloy hubs. Rear cassette hub. Kenda blackwall tyres.
• Gear System : Shimano 24 speed STI button shifters. Shimano Front SIS & Acera rear derailleurs.
• Chainset Specification: Shimano chainset with alloy cranks, chainguard and sealed cartridge BB .
• Brakes: Front Promax cable disc brakes Front and Rear. Shimano STI Brake levers.
• Handlebar and Stem: Zoom 1 1/8" Aheadset stem and riser ATB handlebars.
• Frame Colour: Matt Black
• Fork Colour :Matt Black
• Weight:15kgs

I felt like a kid! I was so happy that I couldn’t stop grinning while the guy at the bike store was putting it together. I even got a 10% off the price and got a helmet for free! As soon as I got on it I felt… amazing. I got home to change as I was in jeans and my leather jacket and I felt like dying of heat (it went 29C over here at noon and afternoon), and as soon as I had some lighter clothes on I went out. I biked for like two hours, all around the city, speeding up, slowing down, making quick turns, going down dusty forgotten roads… It was amazing! I hadn’t biked for almost eight years since my old bike broke, but I guess it’s true what they say – once you learn you never forget.

It felt amazing. It chased away all the gloomy thoughts and all the bad emotions. I felt free. I feel happy. I’m still excited about getting the bike! It’ll not only help me in workout, but it will be one more way to chill and just escape.

Last night was horrible, but today was a great day!

I even rode on it without hands! *laughs* I told you – I feel like a kid! :)