||Day 6 of the 90-day diet||
The diet is going quite alright so far. I got used to it quickly, which is great. I’m not weighing myself as I don’t want to stress over how much I’ve lost or haven’t lost. But having strawberries for breakfast, eating with my chopsticks… it turns out to be a rather nice way to start my days. I’m so far doing well emotionally as well, despite having had another couple of fights with A. – no need to talk about these as they were beyond stupid and annoying -_-‘ But seriously – sometimes I feel like we’re back in the kindergarten… or more exactly as if she is back in the kindergarten and I’m 23 trying to talk with a 5-year-old. It’s quite frustrating and annoying.
Lately I’ve been having some troubles with sleep despite going to bed around midnight and waking up the earliest around 9am. I keep on waking up during the night, having unpleasant dreams, pretty much waking up in the morning more tired than I was when I went to bed. It really kills my brain and affects my writing. I’m just… muse-less. I want to post, I have ideas about what to write as replies to my roleplays, but in the end I just stare at the blank page and I write nothing. I guess I just should try writing and keep on writing no matter what in order to unblock myself, because I don’t want to leave my roleplay partners waiting for me forever.
I also realized that my second during-the-semester tests are just a couple of weeks away from now, and my final exams are hardly 2-3 weeks away. And it gives me chills. I want to do well, I want to pass them all.. but I am not very confident if I’ll manage to do it. My stomach turns into a balls of nerves just at the thought about it. I have to start studying already, but… I really have no desire. This semester turned out to be quite tiring with all those weekly tests for a couple of my classes. I just want it to be summer already…
But then again I kind of want to start working during the summer, but at the same time I don’t… it’s weird. Maybe I’m just nervous about the possibility of starting working – it would be my first job ever. If I do so I won’t have all that much free time as I wish I would… So I’m really torn between the desire to start working what I want to work in the future and just resting for a couple of months, roleplaying, having some time for myself, working out, and so on… Not that it is 100% sure that I’ll get a job – just that my Social Networks professor from the first semester mentioned that if I wanted I could work in his company during the summer, but it’d have been like 6 months since then, and taking in mind the economy crisis at the moment… there might be no job openings there. So… I’m just worrying about something that might not happen at all. *sighs*
Well, those are my thoughts on this Monday morning. I have lectures in the afternoon and I gotta go this time to get some of the previous lectures copied as I didn’t go or didn’t manage to write everything down. And starting this week I’ll do my best to start taking care of things one by one. So first I’ll be starting preparing for the exams! Once they’ve started and about to end (around the beginning of July) I’ll be contacting my professor to ask him if they are still looking for someone to work for them during the summer. If not… I might try finding another job or just working on myself during the last summer of my college days –is graduating next year-
Wish me good luck!
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